There is a lot on my plate right now. (As a side note, thank you for the food that literally fills my plates at meal times.) You have been teaching me so much. And Lord, two thumbs up from me on creatively planning those lessons. (Not that you need my approval...)
I'm learning that my wants and my plans are often ridiculous and weak. ((Quote here from C.S. Lewis - Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.))
I'm learning to be a submissive teammate in my marriage.
I'm learning that I have so very much to learn.
And Lord, I am holding on so very tight to a few very special things. I am starting to realize (and worry) that I need to loosen my grip around them. But to be honest, my motivation for wanting to loosen my grip is not that it's the right thing to do. I worry that you will take things away from me that I hold too close. I know you are first. I know you are my number one, first love, Creator, King. And my love for husband, my son, my daughter, my horses and that ministry will never EVER compare. But, Lord, they are so good. They are so lovely and perfect and my heart wells up just to think of them. So, Lord, I trust your plan. But please, please, never take them away.
I'm learning that you can get hurt badly by the things you love the most....literally. Adalia has used her razor like fingernails to dig out my skin daily as of late. And, I got bit by a horse today. Ouch. Seriously.
God, please help me to keep learning. And help me to be quick about it.
Thank you. Amen.