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There were days when I thought that a sweet song would save my mood.
There have been days when I believed with my whole heart that my husband was my rock.
There have been days when I thought my strength would be enough because I needed to be strong for my kids.
There have been days when I was certain that a Chai Breve Latte from Starbucks would force the stars into alignment in my favor.
There have been weeks that I thought I couldn't get through if not for the 'light at the end of the tunnel' with Tom coming home on the weekend.
All these little things, all these fixes, seem so innocent. But they turn so quickly into idols in my heart. I turn to things rather than my Savior to save me. I look for a sad song on a weepy day. I look for a chance to run to the store without the kids on a busy day. I look to my husband on a day that I am extra insecure.
I am so quick to turn to anything besides my King. When I should be bowing my head in prayer, I rest my head for a nap. When I should be raising my hands in praise, I am reaching for anything else to fix my attitude.
This is an enormous problem that I see in heart and in my life. I want to change it. I want to abide in Christ rather than relying on the world. My choices fail me each and every time. They are short term fixes that barely last a moment.
These choices also lead me away from Christ in crisis. When it is not my habit to seek out the Lord in each and every little passing moment and need, then it is certainly not my default setting during trials. I get overstressed, overly anxious, and quickly angered and overwhelmed. This issue needs immediate attention!
Do any of you struggle with this?
Are any of you SUPER excited that I finally got back to my blog???
(((CAUSE I AM)))